Okay, I realized my problem is getting worse. I didn't realize it getting much worse until well, now. It used to be just admiring someone for their talent and stuff like that. But apparently my head has taken it to a much different level. Everytime I hear his voice I get all fluttery but I have to keep reminding myself it will never happen. It seems my world is slowly, surely revolving around him and my stupid idiotic pathetic fantasies. I'm like, SNAP OUT OF IT MISSIE, and then I forget about it and the next love story comes on in my head. Bah, God, I need your help and strength now :( I need to take my focus off him and onto something important like well, let's see... YOU?!
He's just so captivating... and it's not a good thing. It's very very bad in fact. I'm distracted by him and turning away from you. I'm not calling him a devil or anything, I just think my will is very weak. God, why'd you make someone so 'perfect' to human standards?
Every song I hear, if can be associated with him, I will start like, my own little music video in my head.... and he's always in it. Urgh, I'm starting to disgust myself at my patheticness. He's not gonna know you, let alone fall for someone as 'unperfect' by human standards as you. Wake up B, and see the bigger picture. Get out of your own little world :(
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