4.3.2011

'No more fear...'

Ohayo.
Today I went to school and they had some Youth Alpha thingy. And the part that touched me the most was the part where the pastor said
'You don't have to look like those people in the magazines, because the image of Christ in you is the most beautiful image.'
By then I felt like tearing. It was almost like, the best thing I've every heard and for the first time in a LONG LONG time I felt beautiful.

'Angel don't you cry...'

Back to school, I realized that Laura and co. were not talking to me anymore. Why? I have no idea. And Shan recently came to me and asked me 'Why do you always get like, overexcited and overeact?' Honestly it kinda really did hurt me because I thought she was a friend I could count on. But Mer stood up for me and said 'Bcos she's Beatrice. She's made like that.' and that made me love her more.
From that happening I learnt 2 things,
1. I just realized that I technically have NO friends I can just be myself around. Just cry when I want to and laugh for no reason. And whom I can tell anything and not be judged from it.
2. The littlest things you do when a person is in need will be a very big thing in the person's eyes.
And during some group activity, Dahrshini just passed over me, didnt even ASK if I wanted to be in her group. That hurt me more. So obviously I'm going through a slight emotional ride. Let's hope I survive it.