11.09.2011

Hello again. PMR is in less than a month, I think I'll go into depression after that... since I'll do pretty bad.
I've been having something on my mind, I think I'll tell you.
So, months ago, I had this friend, YG. Yeah, I used to absolutely love her, I thought like, I had found that friend whom I can share anything, and everything with. We kinda had the same music interest so we bonded pretty well I guess.
She's in a different class, one of the considered 'smarter' and 'better' classes. And she hangs out with this girl whom I used to be really close to too, but we haven't spoken a word. So if I were to go to her class table, it would be kinda awkward. But I thought I'd push it aside.
But the past weeks, we haven't spoken. At all. Maybe her parents think I'm a bad influence or something. But I do rather miss her, but I guess she's happy with her friends. It hurts when I really want to talk to her, but her friends are so distant and cold, so I think I'll leave them be.
I guess life just doesn't like me. 
Edit 12.10.2011: Well life is going swimmingly well, and things are becoming normal again. Let's see how long this will last.


And about a week ago, I realized something. You know how in shows and movies, a teen girl always has one girl friend (notice the space) to pour out stories, secrets, crash at each others house, stuffle like that.
I don't have that kind of friend. I realize that I don't trust anyone, and how if I have something to tell people, my friends either don't care, or laugh.
Heh...
I also need to stop it with this obsession. I can't get that person out of my head, I need to. It would be good for me.
:'(